perverted sissy paul greenwell

 after my last time out  as always it didnt last very long and as always once returning to this vile destructive addiction i have im more committed and loyal than ever before this week alone ive waited hours and hours for some of Master Ashtons attention in the past i would of gone looking for other doms to ruin me there was no way i could wait more tan 20mins  this time around there is no going anywhere even if he dosnt speak to me for a whole day i will still be waiting for him ive learnt this from maid carolin my sissy sister and homo lover who is the most loyal devoted sissy faggot in Master Ashtons mascot club ive learnt so much from her   

 after years of serving master ashton  ive become so weak minded it really is pathetic ive also fully developed a very real chronic masturbation addiction this is a very selfish and  destructive addiction it also makes it impossible to have any real relationships as its so time consuming i spend hours everyday doing the same repetitive masturbation routine i have no time for anything else ive become way worse over the last 3yrs i will be alone for ever this is my sex life now and i love it i love worshipping Master Ashton daily 

 its like an evil curse thats destroyed everything good in my life all self control all self worth relationships destroyed its so isolating never felt so alone before  it causes major anxiety and stress ive tried everything possible to stop it even to beable to control it all this does is make it even worse Master started this long very expensive reprograming of my normal male mind over ten years ago he has 100% control over me ive become so dependent on him and i love and respect him more and more evey day  

 

 from now on there is no of switch 0 down time no days of i know how stupid that sounds most faggots may get on ef maybe once or twice a week defiantly not 2 or 3 times a day this  is supposed to be a fetish its way beyond that now. having Maid Carolin as my fulltime lover and our GOD Master ASHTON who forces us to train for hours everyday i have no choice but to comply obviously this choice cums with so many nasty side effects and costs thousands but i cant help but fully  embrace this with all my heart 

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 she is just as pathetic as i am she masturbates as often as me and most importantly she loves and worships Master Ashton as much as me both of us are vile and disgusting sissy faggots this is 24/7 permanent its to late to stop shes just as ruined as me 

 fell asleep jerking to sissy hypno woke up and started again did the same thing the day before talking only to maid carolin and Master Ashton who both encourage this disgusting behavior pushing me further and further ive never been more committed to Master Ashton 

 reaing the maids comments make it all worth while she makes me so fucking horny all the time

 the cravings to worship Master Ashton are getting stronger every day he has fully destroyed everything else in my life any normal person would run a mile not crave more

 lots of sissies say they wand to be as ruined as me and crave being known as Masters no1 faggot of all time but once they see how much it costs and how obsessive you need to be they run away 

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 Master made me wait 5 hours to speak to him tonight he has a life away from ef unlike myself and maid carolin we are so pathetic and desperate we both just jerk of till he replies our lifes revole around master ashton and his sites he is god to us

one of the many downsides of being such a disgusting sissy faggot is the only sex i get is with my hand and i love it

 we spend hours every day doing what ever we can to get his attention 

 i live to serve Master Ashton and im at home on all his sites i know its where i belong speaking to him 2 times a day is all that matters to me without him ruining my life i have nothing

 both me and the maid worship master ashton  day and night we jerk of together talking about how we can better please our  master this is all we are good for

my chronic masturbation addiction has become so next level i have a cage now so i can stop touching my clitty constantly now  ive been jamming huge butt plugs and 12inch plus size dildos into my sissy fuck hole till i cry with pain i used to fantasize about doing this shit but now its very real i know how much damage this is doing to my mind and my body  ive even got to the stage of hitting my little balls for hours at a time whilst listening to the most hard core vile sissy hypno there is i new it was going to be really bad if i came back to this again it always has been evey time i try to stop when i start again its always worse

 Master Ashton has started plastering me on other fags sites and gallery's i love him so much for exposing me even more 

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 im ready to serve Master Ashton 24/7 one of the many sacrifices ive had to make to be Master Ashtons no1 sissy faggot is of cause put him first in my life even in front of me there is nothing i wouldnt do if told to by Master Ashton

its a dirty disgusting addiction that really fucks up your life in so many ways.it means i will be single for the rest of my life no one wants a freak like me  i constantly touch my self at least for 4hrs a day somtimes longer 

because he became my sole focus in life when i tried to change this to me being the sole focus in my life the damage it didnt work in the end i was speaking to him every few hours alot of the time i wouldnt talk to anyone but him for days at a time whilst i know this is wrong in so many ways the damage  has well and trully already been done nothing or know one can replace him EVER   

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